Day 42 - Upperhand

 The days and weeks go by so fast now I'm going to use that to my advantage. This next half of my journey is when the results come in I've been practicing I've been prepping I've been planning I've been getting ready.

Current

275.6 lbs
49 " waist
31.32 BF
189 mg/dL Blood Sugar


Next 6 Month Challenges

June

• Camping

July

• Camping Trips
• 4th of July Festivites
• Company Party

August

• Camping Trips

September

• N/A

October

• Halloween Festivities

November

• Thanksgiving

December

• X-Mas
• Holiday Parties

Day 41 - Next Half

Day 38 - Numbers

Let's change them.

6 months till the end of year and with 2 1/2 lbs a week I'll be at 200lbs.

Day 30 - Muscle Mass (278.2)

Well, I have definitely gained mass. I look pretty yoked dude. Month 2 is for refining. The numbers and stats are here - lets make a drastic swing.

So I need to also focus on blood flow. I wake up hard but not hard enough.

I give myself an A (yes) for managing my Hype.

Day 5 - Move The Needle (272)

There. We lost some weight.

Now lets cross over into the 60's

5:45am - Work hard

3:57pm - So I can confirm 100% that some of my erection problems are due to stress and mood. Because here I am still as happy as it ever been but I'm also as lively as I've ever been down there. I just need to repair my nerves so I can be harder and lose all of this belly fat so I can be closer to it

5:07pm - Tony's! Funny how it works - my mind is right so I have ZERO temptation being here! Having ribs instead of Calzone.

8:07pm - Shave

Day 2 - Weight

so yesterday was a very very reflective day. I spent a lot of time trying to live in the past but find some source of inspiration based on what I've done before that worked out successfully.

i've got a very long way to go but what I really need is that spark that spark to get me going that sparked the keeps things exciting the beginning of people talking about my progress and I think I found it.

less than 10 pounds. I may have dropped a few more than that but really that's all it took was a 10 pound weight loss for me to take some pictures and rejoice and people notice of my clothes fit better. and because of gained so much weight over the last year when I get back down to this weight 254 pounds people are going to absolutely freak out.

today I need to kickstart it was some low carb.

6:37 am  - I really feel like I am going blind.  Need to get my eyesight back


8:38am -    Blindness, Kidney damage, Stroke, Heart Attack, Impotence, Lose of Limbs

Not sure why those things are not as motivating to me as they should be.  I do look forward to rectifying them

So one of the big changes I need to make is learning how to stay in control when having "fun."  Wife just said we should do somehting fun this weekend and in my mind that always means

• Drinking
• Eating
• "Starting over Monday (the 1st, etc)

No carb means no carb 

5:51pm - Yes to bad

Carl's Jr dinner w/soda😁
Choices

7:51pm - are used to lay in bed and dream of being at the gym the next morning I was so focused

Day 1 - Ready (276)

The last 2 weeks have been wild.  They have contributed to this whirlwind of a year (it's only April!) but there have been elements of debauchery that are tought to get past.

Drinking, eating, drinking, eating....


But I'm ready.

I'm ready to get to where I haven't been able to go. The struggle has been real since 1995.  So many failures that what would it look like if I erased it all?   THIS YEAR!

Current:
Blood Sugar: 187
Waist: 50"
BF: 32.77%
Weight: 276lbs

Goals
Blood Sugar: 109
Waist: 32"
BF: 15%
Weight: 185lbs


7:09am -  I want people to freak out when they see me.  That feeling where everyone is commenting so you know just KNOW other people are going to chime in at any moment

8:21am -  So interesting.  I'm very overweight, damaged nerves and all of that but yet I am very "lively" down there.  Morning woods on the regular.  So that is very very encouraging but would love to know why.  Eliminating everything else...it has to be STRESS related.  It is minimal in my life at the moment (knock on wood)

9:11am -  Get back to the old gym rate exercises -  lungers, turkish getups, kettle betl, jump rope, jumping jacks, etc

 Tabata


10:13am -  I need to actually track and review my nutrition progress




11:26am  - all those fat jokes, boyeeee.  Oh man, it's on.   I can feel my stomach hanging over the belt, it really is unhealthy and grotesque.  I am damn near blind from the diabetes

11:54am -  Learn to eat right and log it all -  no starting over until the next clean day - that's insane!


Food Journal



12:30pm  -  flashback!  Skinny as shit but still fat! #perspective

12:56pm - wow

109 weeks ago

12/18/13

Organize

6:31am - Okay so I realize in addition to discipline and positivity I'm going to need to take the same organization I've recently found and apply it to this goal of being healthy.

i've been to myself but I can't just be free I have to actually keep track of what I'm doing on a day-to-day basis and manage my way to the end result otherwise when I let go and do check back later I'm often got in the wrong direction even though I may not feel like it.

even though I've been exercising and trying to watch the types of foods I eat and I've been feeling good and positive and sacrificing in the morning going to the gym at the end of the day I am 275 pounds which really is heavier than I've been in my adult years.that tells me that whatever I'm doing is maintaining but I need to step it up a notch if I'm going to reach my goal be healthy and live a longer life

10:26 - Stick to it.  My clothes are tight and my toes tingly.  It will get better