so yesterday was a very very reflective day. I spent a lot of time trying to live in the past but find some source of inspiration based on what I've done before that worked out successfully.
i've got a very long way to go but what I really need is that spark that spark to get me going that sparked the keeps things exciting the beginning of people talking about my progress and I think I found it.
less than 10 pounds. I may have dropped a few more than that but really that's all it took was a 10 pound weight loss for me to take some pictures and rejoice and people notice of my clothes fit better. and because of gained so much weight over the last year when I get back down to this weight 254 pounds people are going to absolutely freak out.
today I need to kickstart it was some low carb.
6:37 am - I really feel like I am going blind. Need to get my eyesight back
8:38am - Blindness, Kidney damage, Stroke, Heart Attack, Impotence, Lose of Limbs
Not sure why those things are not as motivating to me as they should be. I do look forward to rectifying them
So one of the big changes I need to make is learning how to stay in control when having "fun." Wife just said we should do somehting fun this weekend and in my mind that always means
- Drinking
- Eating
- "Starting over Monday (the 1st, etc)
No carb means no carb
5:51pm - Yes to bad
Carl's Jr dinner w/soda😁
Choices
7:51pm - are used to lay in bed and dream of being at the gym the next morning I was so focused
